I agree. I won't be the one to say it, but remind me to never hand sharp objects to a student in high school Biology. I'm all about dissecting virtual frogs myself.

Wow you got lucky, we only got some semi dead frogs in our Biology in High School. I dropped out of Zoology as a major because of all the dissecting, and besides that the formaldehyde made me sick. (they don't use it anymore 'cause it's toxic, duh)

Eh blood is nothing............ but so many kids are ickkked out by frog dissection.......

Uhm.......... I had a strange dream this morning.......... don't think I'll share but it explored my feelings of abandonment. I lay awake thinking about it a long time. For some weird reason it's always set at my old elementary school I attended as a child. I don't know why.

That Freud article I mentioned somewhere else also addressed "living in a fantasy world" and why......... more or less addresses the last question that Justin answered for his latest Q&A. People with brain injury tend to build a fantasy world to live in, because facing reality is so devastating.

I don't know what excuse "whole and sound" people would have for dwelling in a fantasy world. Emotional trauma I guess. One must get over it to live i the real world. If it allows you to create wonderful art it's ok, but one must know the difference, where the boundaries of fantasy end and begin.

P.S. Don't feel abandoned, luna. Parasites like me are around to stay.

Take it as a sign. As good as any!

I draw a lot of lines between men in my life (yes includes a certain Moody Blue, and also that guy who took in the whole world that you mentioned) after a really long talk with my brother the other day (the one in Arizona). He's actually a very shy guy in many ways. The Freud article was still bouncing through my head too............ basically that we all live in our own fantasy worlds. Does that fantasy world intersect enough with Reality to allow for a well fulfilled life???

Anyway......... I do draw a lot of lines between unusual points, but I don't foist my conclusions on people usually. Try not to. But it's important to me.......... yeah some feelings of loss, abandonment, but I'm not sure it's resolvable. One just lives with those things usually.

Just got off the phone with my OTHER brother, and he's having his own dreams and fantasies, which make sense coming from him. Again, so long as you can tell the difference, it's all ok.

I don't know about other people, but I tend to let my mind wander to these places when I'm driving.... it's a good exercise for thinking. Which is why I like to travel by car long distances.

I know not BOC.....

I know the feeling on the IRS stuff. I poked, pinched, added tallied and went on. It turned out none of it was needed or helped me after all. What a let down!

No no trust your "gut" feelings on that stalker. God talks through "gut feelings" never doubt that. I'm a believer, when I saw what happened to the only two dudes I considered dating in High School. Guardian angels protected me there, and my gut feelings too.

I LOVE SCA but can't find anyone I like to do it with me. My whole gang in High School was pre-SCA, Goth sorts (before there was Goth). Lord of the Rings types. Very theatrical. My son and his first girlfriend were into SCA. I asked him the other day if he'd like to get into it, but he's too busy now :.( I enjoy making the costumes. A bit of work, but fun. When Stephan was very young, I made both of us costumes and went to the Novato "Renaissance Fair" which was when SCA was just getting going. We had a very good time!!! And it was educational for him. Many arts at the SCA fairs are being kept alive, like spinning, weaving etc. I fit right in. But who has the time!

OH I have a thought. One of my friends in Virginia (a very nice looking fellah too, my age) is really into Scottish Highlands stuff, he's clan Wallace. Would you like to meet him??? He's very fun. (I guess we should take this discussion off line) he's fairly smart too.

Speaking of weird flash backs..... did you know Kelly MacGillis lives in your town?

https://movies.yahoo.com/blogs/movie-talk/kelly-mcgillis-recalls-top-gun-love-scene-lot-215315250.html;_ylt=A0SO8yHO0EhTEiUAprdXNyoA;_ylu=X3oDMTEzanA2ZWlnBHNlYwNzcgRwb3MDNARjb2xvA2dxMQR2dGlkA1ZJUDMxOV8x

I wish so much I could track her down and ask her more about the making of *Top Gun*. Their movie crew descended on MIramar right after I left, and I left some interesting stories behind that I ............ wonder if they got scooped into the plot often. Long story.... but yeah those were times for young people to be rowdy, that's for sure. Good little quick interview.

The Witness is one good movie too.

Thank you on BOC I can't place them alas. Sorry, just muttering about the blind date, but you know people DO sometimes meet each other that way.

BOC... was it "Don't Fear the Reaper"?

Well, life is as it is. I'm alone and so it goes, but I have family all over the place I can call or visit and bug. I'm quite good at being alone.

As Justin's cover of the Rush songs.... no regrets. But it does seem strange to spend my life alone. I enjoyed being married for those five years. But he was also sorta boring, and annoying when he showed life. I'll never forgive him for his bad habits when I was cleaning the kitchen.

That is politics for you. The star of the show is the candidate d'jour and that sparkling glitterati is the golden ring they all grab for. Alas, sadly not to make our world a better place.

I haven't been here but I DID catch up on a lot of sleep last night and feel VERY good. My spin up factor is pretty ugly sometimes, I can't shut down and just REST. Thinking of going to a lecture about meteorites tonight at the Aerospace Museum.... not sure I'll be in the mood, but it IS free and my sort of thing.

Having slept in, I finally got some REM time. Ugh I had one of those pre-show dreams. There was going to be a Moody show, but I didn't want to wait in line, we seemed to be really near the ocean, and it was grey and overcast, rainy. Then I decided I had better get in line, and I looked for someone I knew to sneak up the line, no one was there, I considered offering some teens a money bribe to get in with them. Then I realized I had left my notebook with all the important information in it, just wandered away and left it laying somewhere. I had some wad of stuff in my pocket, but wasn't sure my ticket was in there... I'd left my purse in my car, which was a long hike back. The line was melting rapidly, all the seats would be gone and I'd be in the back. UGH.

It wasn't a nightmare, but I was glad to wake up from it.

I'm wondering how crowded these solo shows will be, with enthusiasts. I know on the ship last year, I didn't sit for hours waiting in line, I went down about an hour prior, yes there was some scuffling for good seats but I did ok and His Nibs gave me a wink, even sitting 'way back. So I was happy. I remember in the 90s, waiting in line at the Coach House a LOONG time and it was sorta miserable. Then there was a pitiful lead in act we all waited through, in VERY hot un air conned conditions. I'm amazed it gets so much press, that venue.

yeah this was for sure work a swim with the fishies.... 'nuff said I suppose.

Heheh the Roach House.... that's about right. I enjoyed the one in Santa Barbara (you were only there a few nights weren't you?) Gerry and I met on line just spontaneously and got a room together. What a nice gal, seriously. I wonder where she went.

I just don't relish driving down to OC I would have been happy bouncing around Hollywood a few days. Oh well, it will be an adventure.

Man if I can just get you, me, and my brothers all going the same direction, this will be a pretty nice vacation........... just talked to one of them tonight.... the one that likes the Stonies. He's going up to Flagstaff to play Grizzly Adams........

Back on-topic, yesterday, I passed Keith Emerson on the way to a workshop. Last night, I actually reached the dream state, and the scene was recreated exactly, except this time, Emerson asked me what I thought of his presentation. We had a nice conversation and I was brutally honest, saying exactly what I thought of his tremendous performance, good chord progressions, good band members, lame interview, Moog pretense, etc.

Well, don't I think I'm fancy or something.