I used to see cosmic connections between math and the social studies when I would pull an all-nighter. I could never remember what I was thinking after a little sleep. I assume it is like those dreams that are funny until you wake up.

I cannot buy into the portal bit, as there is too much speculation for me, and I'm not FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELING it. I'm not saying you're wrong. I'm more into simple stuff, like Newton's prismes.

Admitting no more than is necessary and sufficient, electrons and protons are inverse force-fields of mass and charge. You can build stuff with that, but I don't know where trying to travel through an electron will get you. I'm reading economics again. I want to get back to the prismes.

No. I haven't organized my priorities to go back to school and study biochemistry, or even go higher than 200-level chemistry. I've tutored a couple people fairly recently, and I was surprised to see they were still teaching stuff as we learned it. I was sure atomic modeling would have become more complex with computers and all. The instructional medium has changed, but not the message.

You are starting to get me. I'm a simpleton who seeks unification - up to where it makes sense. When you start trying to combine everything into a single force, you have to get really crazy to explain a dynamic universe that doesn't wind down. I use science to simplify things for understanding and application. Many use science for cash flow, so they have to keep it arcane and fascinating. The problem of string theory, when I last left it a couple decades ago, is it had a special case for everything. There is no point to a theory if it cannot identify patterns. I don't have to publish; I perished long, long ago.

Justin keeps saying he hopes he understands the lyrics of the two songs from the dark period by the end of whatever tour. I think "You Can Never Go Home" is very cosmological, but surely that wasn't the angle he took. I'm gonna analyze it even though Justin says he tries not to, as he's been big enough to handle my toxic inanity, and people were trying to tell him thoughts they could not defend before I ever came along.

Justin said

I don't know what I'm searching for,
I never have opened the door.

I don't know for what I search, either. That is a little more despondent than most, who know what they want, but they search how to realize it. Whenever I pray for an answer, I'm told I write my own script, and I reply I'm too cowardly for that. The question, however, is totally cosmological. The next two lines indicate (to me) Justin is more self-actualized than I and willing to throw everything away to do what he must, if he could only know it is what he must. On to the cosmology.

Justin said

But time will tell of stars that fell,
A million years ago.

Of course. Stars are so very far apart. We would call them suns if not so. So there's Alpha Centauri, our nearest neighbor at 4.34 light years away. (I had to look that up.) It will take 4.34 years for us to get the EM signal about that star falling. Since nobody has found the edge of the universe, a million years is not an inordinate amount of time for light from a star that loses its trajectory and goes rogue to reach the earth. I think we're going back to your astronomy lectures, luna.

Justin said

Memories can never take you back,
Home, sweet, home.

This is a mind-bender. Memories obviously can't transport physical people, and yet they kind of accomplish the same thing. One can reconstruct the emotion, but the power to ment is absent. This gets into philosophy about spirit vs. matter. Why do we have all this matter if we are supposed to be spiritual? Is the matter maya, or are we supposed to use our physicals to shape matter in messages of love? I have no clue.

Justin said

You can never go home any more.

This is so, because you can go to the same geocordinates, but the Milky Way will be in a totally different part of the universe. Even if things look the same on earth, people will either have moved out or in, or changed their character entirely.

Justin said

All my life I never really knew me till today.
Now I know I'm just another step along the way.

Back when the song was written, people were searching for their identities, even though identity theft did not proliferate until this century. Joking aside, this goes back to line upon line, precept upon precept. You cannot learn calculus if you cannot understand math. Whatever you seek would blow your mind and you would not recognize it if you didn't have the groundwork. My old boss Charlie liked to tell of such an experience. He lapsed into a deeply meditative state where he knew he could get the answer to anything he asked, but he was so dumbfounded by it all, he knew not where to begin.

Justin said

I'm just waiting for the sun,
When the journey we are making has begun.

We're back into astronomy. It sounds like they're going to get to work now that the sun's up. Note also Mole also is, "burrowing his way to the sunlight. He knows there's someone there so strong." Let's skip ahead.

Justin said

High above the forests,
Lie the pastures of the sun,

So now, it seems the journey may have been to the sun instead of just a daylight terrestrial jaunt. The imagery reminds me of a cool picture I once saw of concentric globes. The sky of one was below the earth of the next. It was very beautifully done and for years was one of my favorite paintings. But figuratively, it sounds like he speaks of a brighter place with peaceful pastures, or heaven.

Justin said

Where the two that learned the secret now are one.

To this, I'll revert to other lyrics like "give just a little bit more, take a little bit less" and "all the love you've been giving has all been meant for you." The secret of becoming one is for each to do what one believes is right, not keeping score. Either that, or he's talking about making babies. Can I say that?

It is uncertain, but it is possible that "here" refers to "the sunlight" for Mole.

Justin said

Cos here there's lot of room for doing
The thing you've always been denied
Look and gather all you want to
There's no one here to stop you trying

Soon you will see me
Cos I'll be all around you
But where I come from I can't tell
But don't be alarmed by my fields and my forests
They're here for only you to share

So once again, we seem to have fields and forests up in the sky, in the bright sunlight, in some kind of heaven, or perhaps just some form of individual temporal freedom. The part of soon seeing "me" all around you reminds me of a spiritual experience so strong, I believed I saw "The Spirit" in every surrounding, scintillating molecule. That's how I'd interpret it, 'cos it's so powerful personally.

Justin said

Weep no more for treasures,
You've been searching for in vain,
'cos the truth is gently falling with the rain.

That goes back to the material world and the worth of things one cannot take with them. Truth, at least according to the catechism to which I subscribe, may be taken with you. This truth isn't stark or cruel, it's just there, all around, and nice. It rhymes better than, "'cos the truth is all around us in the air."

Justin said

Don't deny the feeling,
That is stealing through your heart,
Every happy ending needs to have a start.

To me, that has always referred back to the feeling I get when I discover truth. We can't hold it up and share it with others, but we need to trust it. "Don't quench the spirit," is another way of putting it. I think Justin is using it here because he and she are in love and he knows it's true and she does, but she's afraid to admit it. This goes back to "Never Comes the Day."

Justin said

Admit what you're feeling
And see what's in front of you,
It's never out of your sight.
You know it's true,
We all know that it's true