I'm really mad, I typed a long answer by hand then the site kicked it off and lost it.

Happy May Day

It's time to mow the lawn here........... alas it is raining too, after three days of unacceptable heat!

Yes Spring fever takes us all. I was really thinking about Justin saying "he falls in and out of love"............... I do the same. I fall in love with cute guys, but it always turns out really bad after a few months, and I feel so used. But I really should be thinking "it just didn't work out"................ still looking for the right one myself. In actual fact, I've sorta given up. And I'm ok with that. But, I wish it were otherwise..........

I think Justin and Graeme are both very nice men (both have very pretty eyes), and are members of my favorite band, but "being in love" would be a silly thing to apply to my feelings. Since I don't really know them "off line" so to speak. The "first stages" of love are rarely a good hard look at reality and long term love. Sadly we do fall out of love too......... especially if there is no real deep attachment and respect involved.

Religious expectations (which focus on family rather than personal happiness) and personal expectations can really be a hindrance to "true love" IMHO ........... might I recommend *On the Way to the Wedding* by Linda Leonard? Best book on "love" I've ever read. It helps.

Yes it's time for allergies here............. then again it's ALWAYS time for allergies here. The Scotch Broom is in bloom! (blaugh..........) It also started raining quite hard today, downright miserable. The good news is it knocked the pollen right out of the air.

It's also time for mother's day............ I miss my ol' momma............ she and I didn't see eye to eye on very much, but she had her moments. The miserable part of it is, she died practically on Mother's Day. My Dad's in really bad shape right now too, nothing to be done but be kind to him. And I didn't get all my sleep either, finally a job came through at 10:30 pm for a job I had to get up at 5:15 am for............. not enough time for a good sleep IMHO.

Hope everyone is feeling ok out there, Justin doesn't have a cold, leslee is getting some time off, and everyone is going to spend the weekend with a mom somewhere...

Indeed. Music is what it's about. We music people are a different breed of cat. It's about the music............

Unless you have real roots there, leslee, I'd move. That stalker is bad news. It's starting to take over your life.

Nice simile with the spider. My son said something funny today......... about books that weren't to his liking. "You think aha! It's magic, how cool, then it turns out to be NANOBOTS" I about wrecked the car laughing. I don't know how we did it, my Ex and I were pretty much wrecks as parents, but we turned out a pretty good son I think.

So the day went great here, no rain (it's been flooding for a few days) gorgeous breeze. Yes I know what you mean, there's a sort of grey sky that is almost luminous, especially with bright flowers, or even bright leaves in the fall, against it. And covered with rain or dew. My son spent time with me moving a bed this morning .... I thanked him profusely. And I got flowers too! Now I have to trim them and put in a vase.... sigh work work work......

Lunch went quite well I thought! We have a little cafe here in town that specializes in "good home cooked food" same concept as Alice's Restaurant, and it's all done up with hippy memorabilia, has a painted VW bus built into the wall, all that. It's cute, my son's family likes it. I ordered a BLT with rye bread (allegedly better than wheat??) and enjoyed myself quite a bit. My son dove into some Green Eggs and Ham (on the menu, I think they put pesto in it). My daughter in law had a lovely spinach, fetta cheese and bacon salad. She's lost a LOT of weight, bless her. She's at that pretty stage of life, and happy so she's really nice to hang with usually. The kid was the usual monster all 2 year olds are.... he escaped and opened the cash register, and was going for money!!!! (his other grandma patted him and said "good job") hehehe. I slipped a small amount of tequila into my orange juice, and had a lovely time! (no more booze for me now for a week).

So it's time? To mow the lawn and I did yesterday, so no mothers would be offended when they went cruising Candy Cane Lane. NOW I had to rake up the grass!!! maybe if it lays there and dries out a little........... yes it smells very fresh indeed. Alas it will dry out soon enough and just be a bunch of ugly weeds.........

so anyway back to cooking. I put some split pea soup on, and it's bubbling merrily in there on the stove... warming the house up and smells really good. It's a lovely day here in the North country..........

My liquid nails project is pretty simple, no cutting involved. I also have a pair of shoes to repair, I really like them and can't find decent dress black shoes that I like. All of them have little roundy asian toes on them, I mean, I have LONG toes... long feet look like a jack rabbit. They just don't make nice shoes for my feet... so alas I have to fix the old ones until "my shoes" come back into style. Either that or I have to live in boots!